I hate not being liked. Like it literally keeps me up at night if I know someone thinks or has spoken negatively of me. I can not handle it.
This has been a flaw of mine my whole life. My pride gets hurt because I feel like I am an honest & loyal person. Then my feeling get hurt because I try to make people feel important & special. This is something I have to always work on.
Because I can not esteem myself more highly than I ought (Romans 12:3)
It is unrealistic to try & be everything for everyone at all times
Recently in my life I have had people say negative things to or about me & as much as I have worked on this, it still ate at me. I asked my husband 1,000 questions about what I could have done differently. I made him read through my texts, played out different scenarios for him to critique, etc. Nathaniel reminded me that I will never always do or say the right thing & even when I do, someone will say something bad about me. He then reminded me of the wise words of Mother Teresa. . .
“People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.”
So I am working on this, but now differently. I am going to focus on God, not myself, not how others view me. Because when that becomes the focus, I always feel like a failure. I won’t be able to be the perfect friend, sister, cousin, wife, etc.
But I can glorify God, He knows my heart. . . It was never between me & them anyways. . . but me & my God.
I had so much fun dressing up this Romper I bought on clearance at Target. Shoes $5 at Payless (in the winter).
Earrings also Target, bag is from a little boutique in Germany. (cheap outfit as usual)
(side note- whether or not these words were originally Mother Teresa’s I am not sure & it’s ok. . . that’s who I read them from so I’m sticking with it)